aetrocious

there was a girl, with bangs, who was currently sitting on the floor, staring intensely at the brunette girl in front of her. the brunette was holding a guitar, and constantly strumming it. they were inside the music room, alone. just the two of them.

“i can play the guitar now! my hard work really paid off” said the brunette.

“well, congrats! please teach me, madam” the girl with bangs—lisa—playfully bowed at the brunette—jennie. jennie just laughed it off.

“i wanna play a song. choose one song!” jennie said excitedly.

“i-” even before lisa spoke any word, jennie already cut her off. “wait! i've actually already been learning this song for like, days. i wanna try this particular song” she typed the song on her phone to find the chords.

lisa rolled her eyes. “why did you ask me then?” it was a rhetorical question. jennie was too busy with her song.

“ah, here it is.”

lisa took a peek at jennie's phone, “wish you were gay?” jennie nodded.

“well, you know. it's like describing my current situation. i just wish that he's gay so that i don't have to suffer knowing he likes girls but not me, who is a girl. moreover if he's chasing another kind like me, girls.” jennie sighed. lisa put her hand on jennie's back and rubbed it softly.

“liking someone who doesn't like you back sucks. i don't like it.”

lisa thought to herself, indeed, jen. indeed. she gave jennie a sad smile.

“maybe he's not a good one. or maybe he's not the one for you. who knows? there are still many guys anyway. don't worry. and they all want you too.” lisa gave jennie a reassuring smile. “i mean, who doesn't want you? i bet the school headmaster even-”

“yah! don't slap me!” lisa whined when jennie slapped her playfully. the said girl just giggled.

that's the gummy smile i've always loved, lisa's smile grew wide.

“how about you? do you like someone, lis?” jennie was staring at lisa, making the girl with unmoving bangs gulp.

well, yes. you. lisa shook her head to shove away that thought. jennie gave her a weird look while chuckling.

“n-no. i don't like liking someone. i don't wanna make my life that's already difficult, more difficult” lisa gave jennie a toothy grin. she tried hard not to spill everything. and jennie just let out a small laugh.

“right. you'll not like it. it sucks” a small smile plastered on jennie's face.

hearing that, lisa just smiled. But in her head, she's actually screaming, I'M CURRENTLY SUFFERING NOW MA'AM-

“eh? why are we talking about this? let's just start singing.” jennie put the guitar on the right position, lisa was just staring blankly at her. seeing that girl with the blank expression, jennie nudged her forehead. “what are you doing? let's sing!”

“wait what?” lisa furrowed her eyebrows, even though you can't actually see that because her bangs covered most of it.

“sing. i know you got a good voice.”

“but jen-”

“sing or else-”

“okay.” lisa cleared her throat to prepare for singing. whipped bitch.

jennie started to strum her guitar, filling the whole room with the melody that her guitar made. she started singing, then lisa followed.

lisa couldn't take her eyes off of jennie. her heart was screaming. she just wanted to jump on the girl in front of her and start kissing her everywhere. especially that damn sweet, sweet lips. she gulped and shook her head to erase those inappropriate thoughts.

“i just kinda wish you were gay” jennie sang that line.

bitch, I AM!! i am gay!! the girl with bangs secretly screaming inside her head. then she took a deep breath before ending the song,

“i just kinda wish you were.....” lisa's eyes never left jennie. she stared intensely at the beautiful girl that she has fallen in love with for the past year.

”....gay”

i wish, jen. i wish..

lisa let out a breath that she didn't know she was holding the whole time.

jennie grinned. “told you so! your voice is heavenly! i thank all the gods for giving me a best friend like you”

lisa just smiled bitterly. yeah, best friend. still better than nothing, isn't it?